A plea.

So I came back to Male' for hols and met up with some of my YLP friends. The meeting went great except for this one discussion which shocked me utterly.

It started with the discussion about 15 year old girl who was flogged recently in Maldives. It went on to a horrifying story about how one of my friends was labelled as an infidel just for standing up for this girl in her Islam class... on to how a single father refused to shower his own baby and how some people pointedly keep posting stuff encouraging such things on fb. Today  my 6 year old cousin comes home from school and tells me to stop talking. I ask her why and she replies, "My teacher said naraka (hell) would have mostly women, because women talk too much nonsense. You shouldn't talk too much I'm scared you might go to hell." Seriously, from a SIX year old, I swear!

So respected teachers,  leaders,  politicians, dear parents... Before our kids are scarred for life, before they grow on to be women without courage or bravery  and men incapable of humility or humanity, before our society goes on to be worse than it is today.. Please, stop.

Stop telling little kids that women would go to hell if they talk.  Stop creating a monstrous image of people from other religions in their head, our religion tells us to respect them too. And please, for the love of god stop telling them to not laugh and not have fun, they are kids.. laughing and having fun is what they are supposed to do. Please stop calling people (your students included!) infidels, you do not have the right. Please stop creating fear, hatred and jealousy. We adults have enough of it already, those kids might be the only hope for this country. 

Besides,  

To you is your Religion and to me is mine. (Qur'an 109:06)

Don't judge others, just make sure you are a good person yourself. Live and let live. 

Random 100 questions tag!

1:Do you sleep with your closet doors open or closed?

Yes. Not only sleep, I just can't even stay in my room without closing the doors. All the doors.

2:Do you take the shampoos and conditioner bottles from hotel?

No and I always use my own shampoo/conditioner, but I do take the shower caps because they are always packed and are great for travelling!

3:Do you sleep with your sheets tucked in or out?

Top sheet tucked out, other tucked in. I need my feet to be free :P

4:Have you ever stolen a street sign before?

no 

5:Do you like to use post-it notes?

Yes, love them!!!

6:Do you cut out coupons but then never use them?

No I don't like filling out coupons :l My dad loves them,so even if I get any he uses them (y)

7:Would you rather be attacked by a big bear or a swarm of a bees?

 big bear it is  :|

8:Do you have freckles?

No

9:Do you always smile for pictures?

Yes, most of the time.

10:What is your biggest pet peeve?

I dont know what the biggest one is, but this could turn out to be a VERY long list! Includes a variety of things starting from religious extremists who make hypocritical comments to cutesy intentional misspellings (” kwl", "gr8" "bby"), using the word "gay" to mean "lame", people who will write something borderline mean, but then follow it up with a smiley face :), and many more.

11:Do you ever count your steps when you walk?

No, but I sometimes try to sync with the other person when I'm walking with someone. I tried with my boyfriend, turns out he takes much MUCH bigger steps than me so I have to take like a hundred smaller steps of mine to keep up, so it never works. Meh.

12:Someone you've known from childhood, who would surely make it to your bridesmaids list?

My cousin sisters Noorie, Dish, Itthu. I'm always thankful for having these crazies to brighten up my days no matter what.

13:What is your favorite childhood memory??

Shopping with my mom...just the two of us. We havent done that in a VERY long time and I would love to. I especially remember the "exam" shopping when she would buy me this pretty barbie stationary set right before every term test, if I studied well. I looked forward to it every term.  

14:Do you ever dance even if there's no music playing?

Hahah, YESSS.

15:Do you chew your pens and pencils?

No :l

16:Have you ever cheated on someone before?

No, and I couldn't imagine doing it. Not even a little something that could be counted as cheating. I couldn't live with that kind of guilt.

17:What is your 'dream wedding' ?

That could be a very long answer but I'll make it very very short. It's the big white wedding all little girls dream about. :P 

18:What song have you played most this week?

Skid row, I remember you.

19:Is it okay for guys to wear pink?

Yes, perfectly alright!

20:Do you still watch cartoons?

Yeah, I love Phineas & Ferb, Tom & Jerry (never gets old), Powerpuff girls, Barbie, Spongebob and a lot of other stuff.

21:Whats your least favorite movie?

can't think of any, but I'm a chick-flick kind of person and do not care much for action-based movies.

22:Where would you bury hidden treasure if you had some?

I will probably lose it too, I'm not very good at hiding stuff.

23:What do you drink with dinner?

Anything choclatey.

24:What do you dip a chicken nugget in?

Tartar sauce, YUM.

25:What is your favorite food?

I dont know, nothing in particular. I love food, all kinds of food :| I'm also chocoholic. 

26:What movies could you watch over and over and still love?

All chick-flicks :P

27:Last person who hugged you?

Mamma

28:Were you ever a boy/girl scout?

Yes, girl guides count right?

29:Would you ever strip or pose nude in a magazine?

No, I don't think so.

30:When was the last time you wrote a letter to someone on paper?

A lot of letters, for my boyfriend. I never got to send them. Sad.

31:Can you change the oil on a car?

How about no

32:Have you ever been arrested?

No

33:What do you get scared of, the most?

Lots of things, I'm actually considering therapy, maybe after I start a job. The dark, thunder, ghosts (I KNOW!), and a recent addition: buglers! 

And these fears aren't normal fear-fears. :| I cant do normal everyday things and it's getting very annoying. 

34:Favorite kind of sandwich?

cheese sandwiches

35:Best thing to eat for breakfast?

Sausages

36:What is your usual bedtime?

varies.. morning 4 these days :P

37:Are you lazy?

Sometimes

38:If you could go on a dream shopping trip, where would it be?

PARIS! Duh.

39:What is your zodiac sign?

I'm a virgo ^_^

40:

What’s the cheesiest compliment that you have ever received, by a girl or a guy?

You are "charmingly" fabulous.

I'm serious, a guy actually said that! I'm not sure how that works but then again, he is well-known to have a weird vocabulary.

 
41:Do you have any online newsletter subscriptions?

Yes. A few include Vera Wang, Martha Steward Weddings and Harpers Bazaar.

42:What is the one thing you assume people find annoying about you?

Well I can't say for sure but I really am a lot to handle and I know it. Starting from the worst and silliest insecurities to things like being too fussy. 

The people in my life must love me A LOTt to tolerate all those things I am and I can't thank them enough for doing so :P

43:Are you stubborn?

Yes, prolly another annoying thing. Lol

44:Who is better...Leno or Letterman?

Ellen Degeneres :|

45:Ever watch soap operas?

Yeah. and TV series too. 

46:Are you afraid of heights?

Maybe a little? I'm not sure, Ill have to check sometime :| 

47:Do you sing in the car?

Yes.

48:Do you sing in the shower?

Oh, a lot!

49:Do you dance in the shower?

Not so much now, after a bad experience when I fell in the bathtub and my mom had to come in and take me out. It was a little embarrassing. 

50:Ever used a gun?

Water gun, yes. Gun-gun, no.

 :l

51:Last time you got a portrait taken by a photographer?

For my last birthday, in August 2012

52:Do you think musicals are cheesy?

Absolutely not! I love musicals.

53: Do you plan on having a kid?

Some day, yes of course, 

I like to not think about the "having" part and focus more on the dressing them up part :|

54:Do you like Indian food?

Yes. Like I said, I'm a "food fan". I love Indian food, especially tandoori chicken and their tea.

55:Favorite type of fruit pie?

not sure if it could be considered as "fruit pie" but I love Lemon Meringue Pie. The best lemon meringue pie I've has was this one my aunt made for us at a sleepover.

56:Occupations you wanted to be when you were a kid?

Let's see, my first "occupation to be" was barbie. (Traces of this particular dream still remain :P )

And then came, whole lots of other dreams like a pilot, policeman (crazy phases), model, fashion designer, even doctor!

Through this all the one thing that never changed was, cabin crew! I would still LOVE to work as an air hostess in a good airline.

57:Do you believe in ghosts?

Yes, especially when I'm alone. lol

58:Ever have a Deja-vu feeling?

Yes, a lot.

59:Take a vitamin daily?

Not now, I used to when I lived with my mom. Oh and hated them.

60:Wear slippers?

Yes! I love slippers especially those really cute, fuzzy ones.

61:Wear a bath robe?

Yes.

62:What do you wear to bed?

Depends. PJs, nighties, you know.. stuff all the normal people wear O_O

63:First concert?

My own concert in kindergarten, I think.

64:What household chore would you despise the most?

Laundry! Not the folding and ironing part, just the washing part.

65:Nike or Adidas?

Both.

66:Cheetos Or Fritos?

Neiher

67:Peanuts or Sunflower seeds?

Peanuts! (Even though I'm allergic)

68:Ever hear of the group Tres Bien?

No

69:Ever take dance lessons?

YES.  last one would be cha cha classes. such fun! 

70:Is there a profession you picture your future spouse doing?

Not really. 

71:Can you curl your tongue?

I think so.

72:Ever won a spelling bee?

Ooooh yes!!.

73:Have you ever cried because you were so happy?

yes :')

74:Own any record albums?

No

75:Own a record player?

No

76:Random little thing you plan to use in the long run?

Well off the top of my head..scented candles :P

77:Ever been in love?

Yes

78:Who would you like to see in concert?

Adele, Coldplay

79:Tea or coffee?

Tea

80:Hot tea or cold tea?

Hot tea!

81: Chicken, pork or beef?

Chicken

82:Sugar or snickerdoodles?

either

83:Can you swim well?

No :(

84:Can you hold your breath without holding your nose?

No I panic.

85:Are you patient?

Depends

86:DJ or band, at a wedding?

Band of course.

87:Ever won a contest?

Yes, lots in primary school.

88:Ever have plastic surgery?

No I'm quite happy with how I look :P

89:Which are better black or green olives?

Hate them both

90:Can you knit or crochet?

No, but I want to learn sometime.

91:Best room for a fireplace?

Sitting room

92:Do you want to get married?

Yes, to the point it gets creepy,

93:If married, how long have you been married?

Not married.

94:Are you romantic??

A hopeless, hopeless romantic!

95:Do you cry and throw a fit until you get your own way?

No!! Nevner!! Maybe a little.. sometimes :| Just a teeeeeeeny tantrum. I repeat, teeny.

96:Do you have kids?

 No

97: What makes a really bad a little bit better?

Talking to Nashwan helps almost always. Other than that, a kind word, a hug, depression food, any nice gesture! oh and SHOPPING!!

98:Whats your favorite color?

PINK!

99:Do you miss anyone right now?

A lot.

100. Crowds or small groups?

Crowds, definitely. 

Before the rains..

I wish you could see
The place where I was free
I wish you could see
Me when I was happy
I think you would have liked me

I wish you could live
The times I wasn't as pensive
I wish you could live
The day I had nothing to forgive
I think you would have liked me

I wish you had known me,
Before life drained me,
I wish I had known you,
Before I lost faith in people.
You would have liked me.

I wish you could have laughed
With me, till the day faded
Seen how carefree I was
Before darkness took over
You would have liked me

I wish you could have heard,
The music in my heart,
Felt the way I loved,
Before it was wrenched out of me
I think would have liked me

I wish you could know that girl
Who was once brave and beautiful
That girl who didn't know of malice or jealousy
Or pain, evil or life's cruelty
I think, that girl would have blown you away.

I wish she could have known you,
Seen the love in your eyes,
The kindness in your heart,
And the hope in your smile
I know she'd have fallen in love with you a million times over.

I wish you could understand
When people fail you so much,
When life disappoints you to no end,
How it could break a heart beyond repair.

Happy day, happy thoughts!

Today is one of those few days I felt truly like my usual happy, crazy self since moving here. Ramazan is over and today is eid so we went to galle face to have fun. I flew kites with the kids and it was sooooo much fun. After that we rested on the beach and had delicious cornetto. There were beautiful breezes and there were birds and colorful kites in the sky. As I sat there on the beach and watched the kids play, and the adults trying to feel comfortable on those blankets while they ate.. I felt thankful for being there.

I do not have the perfect everything. It might seem perfect but no, my life is not perfect. There are tough times and happy days like today. I don't have even half of everything I want.

But I realize that it could have been worse. I dont have everything but the little things I have make me so happy. Like nail polish and pretty hair bows. My family might not be the perfect family, but dad sent me chocolates and they make me happy. My aunts, uncles and cousins are soooo crazy that they make me scream sometimes but they are fun and they love me a lot. And above all, I'm with an amazing person and he makes me the happiest. Sooo... LOTS of things to be thankful for.

Here is a million silent thanks heavenwards.

Emmen ge dhattha

When I was a little kid, it was her loving hands that guided me. I remember how she would play with us and then sometimes, get angry too. 
After I started school, it was she who walked me even though she could barely walk steady on the rough streets. It was she who went to the countless extra classes with me, she who watched me every time I went anywhere, even if it was as far as next door.
When I played with my cousins, it was she who helped us find little things to play with. She would agree to almost anything we asked her for.
When I had to sleep alone and was frightened, it was she who spent a many sleepless nights telling me stories she has heard from here and there, trying to keep herself awake.
And as a teenager I remember being a little rebellious. It was her presence that brought any comfort to the long saturday noons and depressing evenings. I remember how she would do anything that made me happy- making little toys from coconut palm leaves, giving me trinkets she got found lying around, watching the road, how people and vehicles passed by.
After I moved away, it was she who kept a firm grip around anything and everything I owned. It was she who wouldn't let anybody, not even my own brother near any of my belongings, whether it be pretty shoes or just old pencils and books.

It was she, who longed most for every time I visited.
It was she, who was my comfort and ease, my guide and my parent.
It was she, who looked after me even though she didn't know how to.
It was she. who gave me most even though she owned the least.
It was she, who made me realize how much you could give to a person just by loving them.

Dear dhattha,
You are my aunt, a very good aunt but you have been so much more for me.
Behind those eyes that are wary, I see love. In your laughter, their is genuine happiness. Behind your anger and frustration, I recognize how you must have endured thrice as much of the misery I know. So many wrinkles mark your hands today not from working for yourself, but working endlessly for us.
I realize today how less of life you have seen. I wish we both live to see a day I could show you places, give you things you deserve, lighten your burden and make you happy, truly happy. I wish I could talk to you and tell you how much you mean to me. I love you so dearly and I wish you realize how wonderful a person you are. You are truly, emmenge dhattha, my dhattha.


Yours lovingly,
Me.

updates, updates

hello blogosphere,

It's been very long since I was here in my very own little space, just ranting randomly. So that's what I plan to do in this post. 

• First things first, its ramazan and the first time I can't go home for Ramazan. Can't say that my cravings are being satisfied by the vegetables and stuff being cooked here. So I have started fasting on cereals, Oreos and fruits. Trust me its NOT fun but I think I will survive as long as we have Kellogs in stock.
• My birthday is like a month away and this is the first time I cant go home for that either. I haven't completed a wishlist yet, since I know I am away and it's going to suck either way.
• I went to Malaysia recently, with my cousin sisters, The trip was a gift from our uncle and we had LOTS and LOTS of fun. The best part of the trip for me was getting to spend time with them after so long and of course, the shopping.

• Look at what I discovered from Tifanny&Co. A charm bracelet!! I swear, Tiffany's make me want to scream.

• I am again rebuilding the collection of shoes my mother secretly threw away when I moved here.
• And the best update of all time, my boyfriend Nashwan visited me earlier this month, and it was the best of times we've ever spent together. Oh oh oh, and this time we also went shopping.The guy hates shopping but he tolerated it while I dragged him all over the place, looking for a dress. Such a sweetheart he is :)
• I found a "Thitthimen Corn" near home. It's like a little bit of Male' and good memories in the form of corn :P

Soooo, that would be all for now. I shall be back later, maybe with a birthday wishlist if I can find the energy to finish it. Till then, toodles!  ^_^

If only words could express this terrible feeling of sadness..

If only there was even a glint of hope to better frustration and hopelessness..

If only I had it in me, to heal you all with love.

If only I had whatever it took, to buy you even a fraction of a second..

If only..

If only the clouds would give way to sunshine..

If only I had the power to claim you all mine..

To keep you away from pain and fear,

To cease the endless tears you bear..

If only..

What money cannot buy, they say

A genuine heart and love but may

If only all the love a girl could give,

would buy you more time.. to laugh, to love, to live

If only..

.. because in the end, we all bleed red.

"Just as you have the instinctive natural desire to be happy and overcome suffering, so do all sentient beings; just as you have the right to fulfill this innate aspiration, so do all sentient beings. So on what grounds do you discriminate?"

I wish it was me who said these words. I wish I was capable of such beautiful, thoughtful words of wisdom. These words were what Dalai Llama had to say about hate crimes. What are hate crimes? Defined as any crime committed out of hatred for someone’s race, skin color, sex, sexual orientation or their membership in any other such social group, hate crimes are said to be the most serious of crimes because these people actually believe that what they are doing is right.

Why do people commit hate crimes? Usually, the person who commits a hate crime is sending a message to members of a certain group that they are unwelcome in a particular neighborhood, community, school, or workplace. By far, the largest amount of hate crimes has been motivated by racial bias. In addition to this, violence cause due to hatred of religions has also become a major issue in today’s society. Most such hate crimes are acts of vandalism, although personal attacks are not uncommon. Statistics show that the most “socially acceptable”, and probably the most widespread, form of hate crime among teenagers and young adults are those targeting sexual minorities. Finally, it is very sad to acknowledge that even people with disabilities have often been victims to this insanity.

It is wrong to stereotype people based on ridiculous things like skin color, where they come from or what they believe in. It is also, very wrong to judge any person simply because he is different from what you are. This is wrong, because at the end of the day, every child smiles in the same language and we all bleed red. So believing in this and making sure that your own thoughts is the first and the most important thing you could do.

Hate crimes literally tear away at the peace and harmony in a society. They serve to isolate a certain group of people in the society. In today’s world, where we are constantly trying to establish equal rights for all human beings, the thought of such happenings around the world is so discouraging. It breaks my heart, to think of people who actually think and believe that they are not good enough to belong. It breaks my heart, to think of all those people who were killed simply because they were different. It also, makes me sad to think that we as humans are capable to think such inhumane thoughts, because hate crimes, more than anything, promote slavery and other violent crimes against humanity.

Considering all these things, is it right for us to simply stand and watch? Or is there anything we could do to put an end to this?

As the young people, I believe that we are the people who can do the most. The more I think about the unfairness of it all, the more I realize that like me, many people think about it. However, nobody ever does anything about it simply because it has never happened to them. I am ridden with guilt every time I think about the things I could have done. People who are young should take initiative in such causes because if we don’t, then who does? Of course, one person alone cannot change the world. However, as long as he does his part and as soon as we all start doing what we can, we might see the world changing for the better.

To sum it up, there is still hope. There is so much we all could do and if everybody would just care a bit more about the world around them, we might actually see a hate free world. We might one day live in a world where anybody could walk free, not because the law gives them the right to; but because the fact that they were born humans give them enough rights prior to law.

"Every man, my brother. Every woman, my sister.

Every old man, my grandfather. Every old woman, my grandmother.

Every crying child, my child. Every wounded soul, my soul."

Again, these words are not my own but Frank McEwen’s. If only, we all could harbor such beautiful thoughts. The world would have been a much happier place.

IF ONLY.. Words of complaint I've never had the heart to say out loud

You gave me a shock, when you asked me to be yours. Well, you didn't ask.. but then again, you confused me with this strange game. I remember writing on my journal.. "He has always, always done the right thing where I was concerned. I trust him to do the same now." I smiled to myself, because well, I suddenly realized how perfect it would be.

If only you knew, the dreams I dreamt from that moment onward.

We spent hours talking, doing nothing. We stayed a many nights, just staring out into nothingness and never speaking a word. Silent was the world, and beautiful, the moments. I could spend all my life doing nothing with you, in my happy place. I still remember every single thing like it happened only yesterday. I still remember how you held my hand one day, when I cried.

If only you had realized how much every single second meant to me.

You left me without reason, and I could never say a thing because I wasn't sure I had you in the first place. One day you showered me with love and the next day, acted like it never happened. I wanted to hate you, right down to your guts. I wanted to stop even speaking to, for the pain and hurt you've caused me. But how could I, when I cared more about you than I ever had for a person?

If only you had it in you, to at least care back.

From then on, you flitted on from woman to woman. Sometimes, I was asked to help. Sometimes, you'd be all secretive about it, like it would lessen my pain. I'd go on with my daily life, and you never left my mind, not for a second. I was so obsessed, so much so that even in my FINAL exams, I always searched for you even though I was already late. So much so during the few times you sent me a text, it would make my day. So much so, that nothing else mattered anymore. Not studies, not friends and certainly not family.

If only I realized how insane I was, for it was all but in vain.

I remember well, all the things I have done for you that you never knew about. I never tolerated a bad WORD against you. No matter how much you hurt me, nobody was still allowed to say a word against it. I remember how well I defended you, making up lame excuses. "He was just having a rough time.. didn't mean to hurt me.. did it only so that we wont mess up things.." I went on.

If only you knew how I always longed for one kind word, one nice gesture.

If you ever came across any challenge, I'd stay with you right through the end. I did, many a gazillion times and no, not because I expected anything in return. And certainly not because I wanted you to do the same for me some day either. But when it came down to the smallest, smallest thing where I needed it, I was sure you were there for me. I don't hold it against you that you weren't but the least you could have done was tell me the truth when you knew I what believed till the last minute.. until I heard sympathetic words from others who knew. No explanations given, no "sorry"s offered and certainly no care given as to what I felt. And I accepted this, was angry at first but then again, let it go.. like I have the many other times you've let me down and hurt me.

If only you had any idea how many things like this have made me cry myself to sleep.

Once I tried to be there on your birthday. It might not have mattered much, but I wanted to and I couldn't no matter how much I tried. So instead, I thought of making you a card, along with a gift to send. I snipped, pasted, cut and worked all night long, till I couldn't anymore. It wasn't pretty or creative like I wanted it to be, because I'm not a good artist. However, my hopes were high when I showed it to you. And I do not think you even looked at it. I was again so sad that I tore down the whole thing and never sent you my gift either.

If only you knew how the simplest things you do, broke me apart every single time.

You never told me what I lacked. If you didn't reach for me over and over again, maybe I'd have thought it was because I simply wasn't good enough. But why did you want me at one time, leave me again, want me after that and leave again? I would have sung for you a thousand times.. I would have maybe, done everything I could for you. Yes, even learnt how to cook. I'd have loved you like no other, cared for you more with every passing day and maybe, just maybe, we could have beaten the odds.

If only you'd ever truly given it a chance, If only you'd even tried once.

I had a dream once. Not long ago, I would have given anything to be yours. Not anymore, because I realize now, that it would never have been this way if you ever cared. I have moved on and while I now that deep inside I'll always care about you, please now that you have lost me truly, forever. Because I couldn't stand it anymore.. and though I know you loved me too, I'm sorry it was never enough. I'm sick of being obsessed with you, I'm sick of never being able to move on, I'm sick of waiting for you when you never even asked me to. I'm walking away today..

If only you had stopped me ages ago, when I'd have been happy to look back...

Do I miss home? YES I DO!

“New faces, new ways and new places, here I come.”

This was what I was thinking as I made my way through the familiar airport of Sri Lanka. I have been here before, on various shopping trips with my family. However, this time it was different. Different because this time, I am supposed to two years here. Also, different because this time, my parents would never be there to spoil me.

As I entered the place which was supposed to be my new home, I found a million things to complain about. Not because things weren't in order, but rather because of how determined I was to find everything wrong about it. I went on and on about how I did not have any friends, or how the sand here was never white. I grumbled about the food and about how some people I met here expected Maldivians to be extremely bad people. Of course, I missed home.

At first, I made things difficult for everyone around me. However, as days passed on, I found myself adjusting slowly. I slowly started getting along with my housemates. Furthermore, as college started I made many new friends.

For once in my life, I have started finding pleasure in things except shopping and dinners and hanging out. Not that I could still survive without shopping (hell I cant O_O) , but I totally could spend a happy gazillion hours with the lil girl who lives at my place, Meesam. We did all kinds of fun stuff like making cards and dancing. She'd sometimes be so naughty and just when I'm about to get all frustrated, she'd show me the flowers she got for me, or the cards and I'd melt all over. I am pretty much the party girl, and I couldn't imagine spending a minute somewhere peaceful. However, I found joy in going to the park and just sitting, watching children play. Sometimes Meesam would ask me to give her a push on the swing, and I would. Sometimes, I just sit on a bench and watch the birds.

Moreover, I am learning how to cook. Sadly, one of the things few things I can't do, but would love to. I have started to spend more time doing things for myself.

I have started to change in ways I never knew I could, and I am happy about it. With every passing day, I learn so many news things. I learnt that being happy doesn't revolve around shopping and shoes. Moreover, I learnt that no matter where you go, it’s always important to be who you really are. You do not have to change the person you are, just to get accepted.

Almost a month has passed since I moved here. Now, I look forward to the 2 years I have left. I have taken up political science and mass communication as my majors in college, and I think it is so far, the best decision I have ever made in my life.

However, every day I face the question, “Why political science?”

To this, I always smile and shrug, most of the time because I do not know what to say. I decided to study political science because I want to make a change. And as to answering the question, “what change?” I’d never even finish answering that question.

Yes, I belong to a society that needs that many changes.

We have yet, to mature as social beings. It’s not a matter of choosing the right leader anymore. It has been brought down to being a matter of right and wrong. We are one sad little nation that's among the lowest populated from the world, and also with an insanely high count of grave social issues like domestic violence, drug abuse and gang violence.

So yes, I have a dream. I dream of making a change one day. A change so good, that around the globe we see the white flags of peace. A day when there’s no discrimination between gender, race and ethnicity. A day we all could forget our differences and learn to tolerate. A day I could walk safe in my own country.

Sigh, that's all for now, be back later. Till then, keep smiling :)

And yeah, here are some of the few pics I managed to get with my little family, before they headed back to the sunny side!

Dad with McDonald's Ronald.

Me and mom , Oh I miss her so! ):

With lil Mr. Annoying, Raif. I miss you too, lil one

And finally me, after getting reddish maroon highlights on my hair yesterday. It was just one of those crazy urges you have. I was coming home from college, saw the salon, and was like, "hey, highlights!" :P